Christmas Time

My Saturday is quite a time for reflection. Is it procrastinating, when i’m just sitting here typing on my day off, high on weed and sometimes staring into space when little clips of sad and happy memories reflects itself off my eggshell coloured walls. I was recalling Barry with fond memories. He’s no longer here, and i still wonder how he’s doing…

Thanks to PJ from A Single Dose , i started reflecting the happier times, that makes my life worth living longer than most. Read On:

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away. Meredith: Grey’s Anatomy

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I love it when happy ever transpired from fairy tales to real. Every christmas and Charming Princes and Princesses. Don’t know much about mr. toothfairy cos she was not part of my childhood.

Incidentally those fairystories i would classify as my ‘Happy right now’. It doesnt ‘ever after-ed anything, it just has a transition from book to here, and redefined itself to be ‘happy right now’.

So christmas is coming, i am guaranteed a ‘happy right now’ no matter how hard things are. Thats the magic that is christmas. So no more crying, marilyn.