I need A Girl – P.Diddy/Usher/Loon

I need a girl to ride, ride, ride

Most of these girls be confusin me/ I don’t know if they really love me or they usin me/ Here’s the money, or maybe you ain’t used to me
Cause you was depressed and now you abusin me/ That’s why I need a girl that be true to me/ Know bout the game, and know how to do to me/ Without a girl on my side, shit I ruin me/ Forget the word, it’s just you and me

I want some real shit, I need somebody I can chill with/ I need somebody I can build with/ I need somebody I can hold tight/ With the time and no full limits, no right/ Anytime we together would feel so right/ You the girl I been lookin for my whole life/ God bless me, I’m glad I got the insight/ It’s cuz of you girl, now I understand life

its my kinda edited version. Sorry kids, i dont feel like writin at the moment, i left my muse there in big ol’ mudhole Khay EL…

i guess i’m just missin’ her…

Happy Easter, boys and girls!

AfterEllen.com

If she’s openly gay, i’m openly attracted.

I’m embarassed to have proudly displayed my life in a web log and spoke nothing of this site: AfterEllen.com because it is just so detailed in issues of lesbianism-

Here’s some digs on the on-stage menage staged by Madonna, Britney and Christina –

for AfterEllen.com says this:

"For many, lesbianism was dragged right along side in the mud.

Terms used the following morning by the general public included “crass,” “crude,” “tacky,” “cheap,” “sick,” and “sad.” With gays and lesbians struggling for respect and acceptance, these associated words are by no means doing us any favors. If Madonna’s recent American Life CD had not bombed so badly, critics might have been more forgiving. Instead, her Britney/Christina three-way was chalked up to a vain and pathetic last grasp for the youth market made by an aging mother of two…

The problem with this message is that it distorts a valid way of life into a shallow gimmick. Mainstreamers who are reluctant to tolerate homosexuality now have a simple out by diffusing lesbianism into three, easier-to-digest subcategories:

THE FAD – going gay is the new black, hang it back up in the closet when finished

THE PHASE – a woman will always settle down with a man once her party days are over

THE FUN TIME – just another sexual practice for straight gals to tempt their boyfriends or to satisfy a biological urge.

Hooking-up with whomever, messing around with a girl friend, and being bi-curious are genuine approaches that work for some women. And this is reflected in the timely antics of Pink, Christina, etc. For others, it is a careless, destabilizing force in an already weak movement for legitimacy.

Don’t let me stop you; green light, go!

Celebrities a-kissin, story me bisexuality, butches, older women, teens, transgendered, trends, women of colour… so brilliant. So Ellen!

My Idol today -

out: Mikalah Gordon

10. Constantine Maroulis

09. Nikko Smith

08. Carrie Underwood

07. Vonzell Solomon

06. Scott Savol

05. Anthony Fedorov

04. Anwar Robinson

03. Bo Bice

02. Jessica Sierra

01. NADIA TURNER

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yes – *nods*

wild horses

childhood living/ its easy to do/ the things you wanted/ i bought them for you/ graceless lady/ you know who i am/ you know i wont let you/ slide through my hands…

wild horses/ couldn’t drag me away/ wild wild horses… couldnt drag me away…

The dawn of things…

This is the forbidden fruit that sparked cravings for knowledge, wisdom and truth; to Lillith’s successor, I drink to Eve; the purveyor of everything that makes Sons of Adam curse the existence of the very human nature’s Freedom of Choice – the FREEDOM TO LOVE; because last saturday, I was sitting alongside a cozy roomful of beautiful men and gorgeous women [asha gill & joanne kam incl. *doin the chicken dance*] celebrating DANNY & DANIEL’s TENTH ANNIVERSARY – and what i saw; was HOPE. Their union ignited Hope in Me and in everyone present. Not only did we celebrate our freedom to love; but it was also the gospel of Hope ReKindled.

Where the world leaders are hopping mad & fighting to suppress the matrimonial union between a man and his man; relentlessly citing and inciting to tomes of edited published and printed biblical lollapaloozas & whatever it is that they dare to call ‘the truth of the norm’; somewhere in the still of the night –

a twelve year old boy comes home from his evening prayers, keeps his praying rug neatly at the bottom of his closet; sits at the edge of his bed and strokes himself to the powerful masculine image of an american superstar thumbtacked to his door…

behind another closed door, a single straight catholic girl sits wistfully by her window – date-less for the night, touching inside her, recalling her most recent naughty lil take away – creaming…

while another naughty catholic chick jumped into her cream coloured agent-provocateur-like corset, grabbed her silver grey Christian Dior clutchbag, aroused and excited and almost late for a last minute date with a girl…

And as the night progesses to climax, blissful Danny & Daniel clinked their burgundy crystals to raise a toast to their togetherness; surrounded by those whom they have come to love, as their family. Somewhere nearby couples were swooning to Lou Marsh’s brilliant piece on ‘Fever’. Their union brilliantly surpassed most heterosexual harmony so consecrated by god; that claimed to last longer than Eastpak bags; laced in lies, deceit, cheats, battered wives and hen-pecked husbands living painfully sans love.

A quoi sert de vivre libre, quand on vit? sans amour?

And for that they dare to call us Queers?

And for that we take our dignity to greater heights; adopt everyday words thought to be derogatory and take it as our own. Why be shy? Why deny? We are Free, gay and Happy. Queerifyingly out there like the fireworks that shattered the star-dotted sky with some kind of technicolours on that balmy saturday night. So unashamed, without reasons to be offended of whatever it is that makes us who we are. Confident, independant thinkers, lotharios of love, lovers of all things beautiful and masters in life & like anyonelse, in constant search of our one true great love…

Here’s to Danny and Daniel – Happy Anniversary…you have given me hope…

and –

"…to those who love, time is eternity…"

My Lord Lucifer…

My Lord Lucifer Morningstar, Samael, The Lightbringer…

Je Suis, Mazikeen – take me let me live in your footsteps, walk in your breath; ride across waking worlds in the wisdom of you. Your faults becomes the strength of your beauty – take me, Master – make me yours.

"the birth and death of a DESIRE. A DESIRE satisfied in the moment its conceived, a wish…"

"people have will & desires… But in this world, a hundred codes & school tell them not to exercise it – to restrain DESIRE until DESIRE turns to poison…

…and then tell their children that poison is wholesome food"

"…it wasn’t HIS love for you that made you hate him; it was the fact that you were aroused by him"