i will love you like nobody love you -

come rain or come shine…

monogamy is a scary word. you gotta tell people what they want to hear not what you want them to know how you feel because they usually dont care how you feel. i know this dont last; in fact – i know it could not – not on the strength from my side and judging from the other’s commitment – i just have to take it that life is short, gotta toggle and reinvent einstein’s rule of thumb –

i give my one percent inspiration, and my 99 percent absolute perspiration. *winks*

it works, deliciously.

but dont let that tell you i dont believe in love; i do. My parents are proof of it. =)

when all of this dont work, i can always find ‘ringgit sense’ -heheh-

but in chetbaker’s soothin voice – hiiiigh as the mountain, deeep as a river – come rain or come shine…

Establishing S.U.i.C.i.D.E.C.L.u.B

At JikonLai.com i encounter an AYGM still drenched in alterna-rock kind of Alanisstyle angst against the world. I met Mr. Lai once, the day i discovered airzed.com from the stud who is perpetually permutating his perceptions – and Mr. Lai is so unlike the personification of the thoughts that spilled out of his cranium and into his weblog. I like this guy. I like what he says. I like that he talks of suicide. i like that he talks of suicide because its how i talk of suicide; therefore i have a public proposal for Mr. Jikon Lai;

The Queer Propaganda,

At PlanetPussyDotTypepadDotCom

Dear Mr. Jikon Lai,

re: Establishing Kuala Lumpur’s S.U.i.C.i.D.E.C.L.u.B

     With regards to the abovementioned – its self explanatory. Please contact the undersigned, if you are interested. Dengan tulus ikhlas –

Yang Benar,

Mj

You haven’t met a REAL MAN?! WTF?!

i’m going back home, you guys! i’m going back home to where life moves slower than slow – i’m gonna drive my Penelope, my lil blue Toyota Starlet, thats about to die of a slow and painful death soon, i’m gonna terrorise the straight girls into Eww-ing. And i’m gonna make the boys cry.

I was in Planet HOLLYWOOD’s anniversary last thursday – garnering attention i so dont want. One of the unwanted-attention i got was in the form of a ‘MAN’ or so he called himself a ‘real man’ – He sat at one corner watching me all night, nudging his friend to tell me how hot i am. His friend turned to me and said, "eh, my friend thinks yr hot, he wants you to talk to him…"  – and pointed at one loser sitting at the corner of the world. i told his friend to tell him that if he has the BALLS he should be the one coming over for a chat.

He did.

I smiled.

But i’m a social person. I spent the whole night polishing off two bottles of Bombay Sapphire with my friends; and there he went back to his corner and oogled all night. After getting a little bold from too much drinks, he swaggered over again; Full-O-Confidence! And told me that he liked me very much, and why am i so Linsi to him?

I smiled and told him, "darling, its because i rather pay attention to the girls"

the stupid grin on his face frozed a split second, after which – his verbal reaction is the C.L.A.S.S.I.C  reaction i would get from any MAN who is most likely to be threatened by the existence of a woman who loves woman.

"thats because you havent met a ‘real man’…", he said -

ohforjesufuckinchrissake!

"Don’t give me that arguement!" – i told him thats the oldest most lamest thing any man would say- A REAL MAN!?! whadafuck?? think i stupid or wat? he continued to assert his point, and i just raised my hand up, palm facing him – and finish it with a "this conversation ends right now" -

Fuck me!

You wanna meet this guy, gimme a call – i’ll point him out to you – the man who thinks he’s the real man to turn me into a hasbian.

Point taken darlin, its not that i havent found a real man its just that i love pussies, not dicks.

So how was your weekend?

OH FOR THE RECORD ACCORDING TO TOONIE – UPTOWN DVD CENTRE SELLS QAF AND THE LWORD SERIES!!!! GO GEDDIT@!!!! aiya but you know – talk abt slowowowoow – i mean the queer community here already have every single bit of it suda laaa – heheh

Back on The Train

back on the train, i’m walkin down your street address – - – EBTG’s ‘Missing’ is drumming in my mind. i’m a happy cat. I’l tell you why – i’m back on that evening train to nowhere –

Here’s my take on A L E X A N D E R – the movie; when i was stuck right in the middle of a concrete O R C H A R D, fiddling online instead of watching beautiful singaporean chicks walk past me garbed in their LV finest. Even my Petaling St ciplak oso kennot match.

Christmas time a-comin – Santa baby, come fill my stockings with a duplex, and cheques – sign your X on da line…

grins

Time Magazine

mesti baca -

A BLOGGER’S CREED – ANDREW SULLIVAN

this is only an excerpt, you blogsilly ppl shld read this cause Andrew Sullivan’s on our side muahahahaha –

mwah!

Finding the perfect word -

[from my language] for a new tattoo –

I N A L U S - fineness, smoothness, beauty

K A A N D A K – will, desire, intention

B I N A B A N G - beam of light

G A A B A N - to have DESIRE

P A P A G A A B - to cause DESIRE/ WILL/ INTENTION

G I N G O/ L U N D U S/ L U M I S/ A L A N G K A S – beauty

and my favourite word in the english language:

infinity – S O G I G I I S O M

—> the common drunken-yell-out ‘ARAMAITI’ is not a kadazan word. Its a lingo/slang – i.cringe just hearing ppl use it.

hmmm –

wha-dat on jolie’s waist?

"Q U O D M E N U T R U I T M E D E S T R U I T"

ie. "What Nourishes Me Also Destroys Me"

in my language:

"ii kapamasi dogo, kopunso nogi dogo"

good morning everyone! go fish!

i just thought—

To really love a woman, let her hold you,
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You’ve got to breathe her, really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
And when you see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

i dont care for the 2nd last line.

When to hate the word ‘ORCHESTRATED’

- when ppl make you believe what they saying is the truth –
- when its a game show and the winners are pre-chosen
- when you think its a hot date but not without her entourage

we are living in a material world – no doubt. Nothing is pure anymore; not even when you’re told that you’re loved. There’s nothing great about spinning your own existence, generating a facade – a frontal to the general nubians so they might be impressed on the the idea of a superstar you. Whatever happened to living it clean, simple and being yourself?

sometimes i wish -

stupidity, ignorance, intolerance [pls feel free to add more - - - - - >]

is PaiNFUL!

everyone’s in a mood to party. I’m in a mood to sleep. ya i was not permitted to lately – by wants of desire. Created my own little evil. If the best thing in the world is PLEASURE NOT IN HASTE TO END – someone please tell me how to end PLEASURE prolonged so much so you just want to have some space to B.R.E.A.T.H.E  –

guess i just have to be a lil selfish with my time –

why are ppl jealous of my mobile devil?

i’m just fishing – fishing – and ppl, they take bait *winks*